My daughter turns 1 this week and my thoughts and reflections have been centered more around what I've been through in the last couple years than any milestones of hers. And that is perfectly acceptable. While pregnancy felt lonely at times, it was beautiful carrying and growing my baby inside me. And when I realized I wasn't actually alone and we had each other, I was comforted by the fact that I would give birth to one of my favorite humans. And I'd make sure she was good,

After living in Long Island, New York for most of my 30 years, I feel more than open and ready to relocate. Living here feels akin to being in a sort of vortex. It's easy to get stuck. And as many memories as I have here and friends that I love, I have been waiting to leave. I want a better quality life for my family and I. Saying this feels like a love letter to all the women before me that lived in survival mode, unable to enjoy their loved ones. I will live a fuller, more

I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding blood 🎤😮‍💨 20 months without a period; that was a nice break. It was one less thing to deal with. Now, fortunately for me, I experience minimal cramping and feel pretty okay for the most part. Besides wearing a diaper and doing some pep dancing, it's been a normal day, add in (or losing) splooges of blood dropping. Depending on the reader, that may be TMI, but it's definitely real. When I thought of writing a blog post on the return of

When you hear someone say, "Trust your intuition", it might sound cliche, but it is very real and valid. That said, applying our intuition can be tricky because of what we've learned from the world outside of us. This, and our intuition is oftentimes subtle and easy to dismiss. - On my older sister's birthday that just passed, we went out to eat with a group of friends. We initially had to wait for everyone to arrive before they would seat us, and while waiting, I saw a girl

Yep, his birthday falls on Halloween. My husband and I actually met on his birthday 4 years ago. It was a Sunday and I originally had plans to go dancing with a friend, but he never texted me because the event was cancelled. I ended up plan-less, but not really because divine intervention. Who did text me that day though was a former co-worker of mine, asking if I had plans that day. Later on, he would invite me to go out to celebrate his friend's birthday. I was reluctant, b

I feel both tired and energized at the same time from hanging out and singing our hearts out to songs we used to sing as teenagers. It's fun singing with you and hanging out with you. In a turn of events, you and I have spent a lot of time together these past couple months, and it's been nice. I've wanted to have someone to hangout with and I'm glad that someone turned out to be you. We weren't very close growing up and I always wished we were. I would actually tell people th

My best friend had just called me to tell me she had a stroke. I was still stunned when my boyfriend at the time walked toward me. I tried to tell him, but he responded as though he hadn't heard me. "What?", he said, wearing a face that somehow on its own belittled. I asked with annoyance back, "Did you not hear what I said?" He didn't like that. I was already sitting on the floor when he stormed up to me, took me by my throat, and pinned me to the floor. He said something al

Why not? The name of this blog, Many Dreams, comes from the many dreams I've had to this day. Not the ones I've had in my sleep but the ones I've dreamt of in my waking life. At 30 , I recognize now that anything I've ever dreamt of wasn't so much for me to pick and choose only one from. Rather, they were all meant for me to express myself and serve others by . I might not interior design professionally , but I'll design the spaces I reside in. And I might not make albums an

...do it all? All the things I love and dream of... or at least try to. Waking up to my daughter coming down from her fever, I started to think of all the things I ever dreamt of doing and I realized I never needed to stick to one thing and one thing only. The external pressures of other people insisting on the pursuit of one career or another influenced my mentality and what felt possible, practical, realistic, so on. I was always very expressive growing up. I loved to sing